I have been in passionate hate with myself for as long as I can remember, the reasons have always changed, but the hate or at least a mild dislike have always been there. Its time for that to change. I've been discussing the matter with my friend/mentor and she has given me some helpful tips to falling in love with myself.
1. Acknowledge the qualities that I already have and how I want those to best have a positive effect on the world.
2. Cultivate the things in myself that I'd fall in love with if they were in someone else.
3. Understand that I am already deserving of love both mine and others right now in this moment, support this foundation of belief and love by pulling forth those qualities you know are in you and meant to be yours and LIVE in those qualities to improve your life and the lives of others around you.
So once I've done that I should be off to an amazing start! Don't cha think?
12.08.2010
12.04.2010
Starting Over... Old Choices Made again
So, I have decided to identify as a lightworker and an elemental vampire. I like to feed mostly from the wind and from water i.e. storms/rain. But yeah, so, I fed recently and it was exhilarting, I was so inspired, and physically hungry afterward. And light worker, well that's because I read somewhere that its all about self-love. Which is what I need, what more people need. I know it sounds cheesy but I want to bring the realism back into it, and take the cheese out of it so people take it seriously.
I got a candle for hannukah so I can practice my grounding/centering. I also need to practice my shielding because other people's opinions seem to evoke strong emotions from me. And I don't think that's a good thing
But I am focusing my thoughts, using the law of attraction to bring my poly group/family/quad/pack to me. First the primary male which I will marry and we will move to Washington so I can be with Ria, my primary female,and we'll add, maybe a second male to our group, maybe. But one thing at a time. My alpha and then washington state where it rains a lot and I can keep well fed.
I like being an elemental vampire, it makes my connection to the earth less stupid and aggravating. I actually like the connection now. Whereas before, it made me uncomfortable. And I'm still researching a little more about the lightworker stuff.
"The Lightworker’s identity
Lightworkers are souls who carry the strong inner desire to spread Light – knowledge, freedom and self-love – on earth. They sense this as their mission. They are often attracted to spirituality and to therapeutic work of some kind.
Because of their deeply felt mission, lightworkers often feel different from other people. By experiencing different kinds of obstacles on their way, life provokes them to find their own unique path. Lightworkers are nearly always solitary individuals, not fitting into fixed societal structures."
from:http://www.jeshua.net/
that's what I read that made me want to be a light worker, that plus a youtube video I added to my playlist... don't want to look up that link right now though, I may add it later... who knows.
Anyway, that's all I wanted to blog about so .. until next time
Star out.
I got a candle for hannukah so I can practice my grounding/centering. I also need to practice my shielding because other people's opinions seem to evoke strong emotions from me. And I don't think that's a good thing
But I am focusing my thoughts, using the law of attraction to bring my poly group/family/quad/pack to me. First the primary male which I will marry and we will move to Washington so I can be with Ria, my primary female,and we'll add, maybe a second male to our group, maybe. But one thing at a time. My alpha and then washington state where it rains a lot and I can keep well fed.
I like being an elemental vampire, it makes my connection to the earth less stupid and aggravating. I actually like the connection now. Whereas before, it made me uncomfortable. And I'm still researching a little more about the lightworker stuff.
"The Lightworker’s identity
Lightworkers are souls who carry the strong inner desire to spread Light – knowledge, freedom and self-love – on earth. They sense this as their mission. They are often attracted to spirituality and to therapeutic work of some kind.
Because of their deeply felt mission, lightworkers often feel different from other people. By experiencing different kinds of obstacles on their way, life provokes them to find their own unique path. Lightworkers are nearly always solitary individuals, not fitting into fixed societal structures."
from:http://www.jeshua.net/
that's what I read that made me want to be a light worker, that plus a youtube video I added to my playlist... don't want to look up that link right now though, I may add it later... who knows.
Anyway, that's all I wanted to blog about so .. until next time
Star out.
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