It seems I am slowly moving my life offline. As I have been online and only online for a matter of years. I will still keep my online life, I will just have a LIFE to match it, or to go along beside it, like a daemon or something bizarre and weird and hard to get used to ... >.>
I went to my first BDSM Munch last week. It was great, not weird or full of obvious creepy people. It was one of those funky visuals that you get when you aren't sure of something. That people will be like the
online weirdos you sometimes encounter.
But no, thankfully they were all funny and nice and 'normal' for lack of a better word. I am sad, really, that I have no basis for what people are like any more, I've been online for too long. Its kinda crazy to use my real name any more too. Cause I'm so used to being anonymous or having x amount of aliases. Every time you create a new account you create a new identity.
Speaking of identity, I went to an energy work shop too, last week. It was an open house by House Vespertine and their affliates. It was very fun, very insightful, opened my eyes to my identity, like what is my energetic structure, what are my energetic needs. I really think I'm closer to my awakening. Which is good, right?
My best friend is moving out of the country and I have very little friends to actually hang out with. I am really starting to crave interaction with people. My roleplay characters are active, well, active enough. I just need some reality to balance me out, and it seems to be coming to me, in all forms, slowly, even my online contact with my gf, seems to be getting less. She has issues that prevent her from coming online much and its hard to do some of the things we do online via phone and its a long distance relationship.
I feel slightly neglected but its not her fault, I'm probably just being needy, I have my book that I'm working on, so that should keep me occupied, right? And I have books, and other characters and roleplays to keep me busy. I should count my blessings and be happy. Focus my thoughts on getting more offline friends. I can see them in my head, just need to get rid of the things that are blocking me from getting it, the contradictions that keep the plant from breaking the surface of the earth.
Okay, enough rambling and updates. I will gather my notes from the energy work shop and post them on here soon. They aren't extensive, but they're still good, I think, and its a monthly thng so I will be able to post something on a regular basis.
Until Next time ...
Star Fygment.
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