gender fluidity

what do you see as your personal "gender range?" Is there a clear definition between when you feel "male" or "female" or "androgynous," "non-gendered," "blended," etc? Or are you always in a state of flux?

Its a question I ran into on fetlife, in a gender fluid group. I wanted to answer but I want to answer here first, as a way of sort of drafting my response. I want a really wordy response like everyone else for some reason. Cause it is something that crosses my mind a lot. I want to get deeply involved with the transgender and gender queer communities...

But to answer the question...

I think my gender range is kind of narrow but within that narrow range its always in flux. Its on the femme side for masculine, think an effeminate male, long hair and long nails, but its sort of non-gendered for feminine, baggy pants, baggy shirts, really nondescript not really form fitting, wife beaters notwithstanding. But its a fluid blended mix of this femme male trying to be a masculine female, if that makes sense. But I am not in anyway butch, in fact I despise the word. I identify as a femme boi, I'm a boy that wants to be a girl, and that's the simplest way for me to say it. I'm a boy that wants to be a girl. But I'm not high femme like make up and dresses, no, I like my baggy jeans and layered shirts very much thank you -smirk-

But its also so fluid that it may change as I grow into this budding gender identity and find my gender expression which is a little difficult right now, but hey, all in due time right?

So that's my answer, I had a nice tie in with my sometimes asexuality but I'm not really feeling that right now, guess that's what I get for procrastinating on writing this blog and multi-tasking, right? Lol!

Science and Paganism

So I realized something (again)...

Studying Science can substitute for studying paganism. Especially for an agnostic pagan like me. Because science is the study of the earth of nature and paganism is the worship of the earth of nature, so they are like so close its uncanny, they are almost the same! For me they can be the same. I can study science as part of my paganism lessons.

I keep retaking this test on okcupid what kind of Scientist are you and here's the result I keep getting:

Systematist
You are 35% hard-core, and care 45% about the big picture!

You like looking at animals and plants. You probably caught insects as a kid and tried to pin them in a collection - you sick bastard. Your ideal vacation is to a sweltering jungle where you sit staring into a dissecting microscope describing a new species of obligate bromeliad mite parasite.

I keep retaking it to see if I can get a different result, and I got physical chemist once, but I didn't like that result either. My original, the first time I took it I kept getting geochemist. Here are all the possible results:

All possible test results
Eccentric Theorist
Social psychologist
Sociologist
Theologist
Molecular Biologist
Systematist
Sociobiologist
Ecologist
Physical Chemist
Organic Chemist
Biochemist
Geochemist
Particle Physicist
Material Scientist
Astronomer
Cosmologist
Analytician
Algebrist
Combinatoricist
Math Logician

I could take the test over and skip over the questions I'm not sure of....
so I did that and I got: Molecular Biologist
You are 25% hard-core, and care 6% about the big picture!

You really like running gels. Ooh Ooh! You like pretty SEM pictures even more! But systems biology probably makes you want to gag.

Curious...

Anyway. I'm studying science. I can have a lab and have it be like my altar or something like that, isn't that cool? I really want to get into physics or botany or something like that, oh and chemistry! I got a really big book from the library called The Science Book... I coulda got it last time but I reached the limit on how many items to have out which is like 50 or something like that. I have to read all the books I've started by January cause I'm going to job corps! My doctor finally signed the papers. -dances-

But that's like ten books I need to finish by January. Its Guilty Pleasures, Burnt Offerings, Circus of the Damned, Killing Dance, Lost Symbol, Spell of the Highlander, Kitty and the Midnight Hour, Laughing Corpse, Obsidian Butterfly and I think that's it... I hope I can finish. And I'll start doing some minor experiments and posting them on here and such, and I can study the laws of science like I would study the bible, see how they can apply to my life in a symbolic way,if that makes sense...

Well, until next time,

Star Out.

Oh, almost forgot, here's alink to that quiz I mentioned ...

http://www.okcupid.com/tests/the-what-kind-of-scientist-are-you-test

Have fun!

Oh and another tidbit, I took this Theism test and got Non Theist, more on that in my next blog...