So I've been researching. In fact I was researching this very thing since the day of my 23rd birthday. Chaos Magic, where belief is a tool, and you can hop from system to system of religions and take what works for you and build your own system of belief. Paradigm Piracy. Its easy to convert to religions but not as easy to stay. It fits me to a T. Just like Unitarian Universalism. I can be a paradigm pirate and a chaos mage (chaote) and be a UU too! So I've found my path. As much as I try to run away from it, the more it calls me. Like being a writer some days, even though I'm not writing every day, I'm trying to, but all I do is wind up researching. And its the same with practicing magic. I don't practice, I research and study. Recently I'm looking into mantras and sound waves, how energy is everything and everything vibrates, as per the universal laws of Hermetic Tradition, so creating, any form of creation is magic, cause you're using your energy to affect the larger energy field. I'm not sure if that segways and links together to makes sense, from mantras and sound waves to everything being magic, but yeah, I don't know the missing link to link it better. So there we go.
I am uncertain if I'm going to keep thinking of myself as a quantum witch. I mean I think on some level I might, but right now, agnostic pagan fits me. As I think gods were made up by man, and pantheons are just like man's attempt to explain the great Cosmic IT to suit their own lives. At some point, on some level, its almost like gods are thoughtforms, astral entities that were created a long time ago and just sustained through the energy of worship and sacrifice from back in the day when people made sacrifices to their gods. But yeah, I'm not so sure as I know so little about thoughtforms. But it does make a good idea for a story, maybe one day I'll write it, it will be all very Matrix-y lol.
I'm keeping a book of shadows that I need to update, but it will chronicle my progress and what works and what doesn't. Right now I'm researching Hermetic Laws, Celestine Prophecy Insights, (I saw the movie and need to read the book), Mantras, Sigils, Sound Waves, Quantum Physics ( I don't think I'll ever stop researching that lol), And of course Chaos Magick, what people have written about it, witchcraft ( though I have to be careful about it, I don't want to attract a lot of black birds and make my dad suspicious, as he said that black birds are a sign of witchcraft), oh and of course unitarian universalism, and other stuff but those are the main things.
I think I'm really attracted to the whole no-rules type of religion, or rather make your own rules religion, no dogma, no creed, just basically carve your own way, not follow the beaten path. So yeah, Chaos Magick, Paradigm Piracy, Unitarian Universalism is for me. I have found my path! Huzzah! I've also talked with a few people about my path online,and they've had some good things to say, need to find a yahoo group or something maybe. But one step at a time. And all in secret. I'm still very much in the broom closet, as far as my dad is concerned. My mom knows, but she's more understanding, and at least she's open about her fear about it, where my dad is just like no its wrong, avoid it, shun it, destroy it blah blah blah. I'm more explore it, research it, embrace it as part of the whole of everything, cause without it the other can't exist. Withouth 'evil' good can't exist, we all need everything to exist as a whole. The great Cosmic IT. The ALL, That Which Is. The Divine Creatrix. Matter and Anti-Matter....
So yeah that's my blog update for now, ttyl
Star out.
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6.14.2011
8.08.2009
Revelations --- Chaos Magick
Law of Attraction is practically my religion. Its the only thing that feels right, that and quantum physics, and alchemy, energy and the Hemetic Tradition: as above, so below, as within so without ....etc...Let me Tell you what I believe.
This may or may not influence whether or not my approach on energy is right for you, my readers, I may not have many followers but I know I got quite a few readers, or at least more than I do followers -grin-. Anyway, I was watching, well, rather, re-watching the Secret, and realized something. Its like the bible for me, the Secret, it allows me to see something new every time I watch it or read it. And this time I realized why my life wasn't up to speed yet. It was the quote, by Bob Proctor, "You've got to pay attention, to what you're attracted to, because as you hold images of what you want, you're going to be attracted to things and they're going to be attracted to you."
And so I asked myself, what am I attracted to. And I realized that was what was conflicting and confusing my polarity. I want this life of happiness, peace and stabilty, but really, I'm attracted to the beauty of the Melancholy, the destroyed and fallen seeking redemption, the dystopic, dismal, grim, gloomy underbelly of life, the blood that drizzles and drips from wounds from passively walking on the otherside of the Veil where people don't employ the Secret to better their life, they let their residual reality just string them along into this complacency.
So, I am going to challenge myself, this is the second Star Challenge Week I've given myself in the space of a month, but why not. The first Star Challenge Week went quite well, I'd like to think. Would have went better if I didn't procrastinate so much. But I will focus and pretend I'm in ritual 24/7. Like a 24/7 D/s relationship with the universe, kinky and sensual, just what I need. Ignoring the static of residual reality, the Shaitans of the Multiverse, whispers of thoughts, ghosts in the human machine of a brain, trying to hack into current, uncorrupted files, people trying to preach and influence other corruption into my system.
I won't listen. We won't listen. We will come out on Top and ready to rock the world.
This is a test, like Chaos Magick, you just try a bunch of stuff, different things and then you go with what works, I've found a few things that work for me sometimes, but the one thing that always works, and continues to work for me, is magick. Will. Intention. Emotion. Its Magick and it works, and I want to learn more. I want to feed this part of me. If anything, that song, 'the world is a vampire' is partly true. Everything is something that you have to feed, nurture with psychic energy. They are very literally 'seeds' and seeds grow into fruits which can be eaten by other people or beings, and not just you, which is why when you do something, do things, you invest energy and you feel drained or 'tired' at the end of the day/night ... whatever. Its why you should choose what you invest your energy in wisely, choose things that correspond on some level to your bliss, whatever that is. Find your bliss, and broaden your mind and you will change the world from the inside ... out.
xXxStars In DarknessxXx
This may or may not influence whether or not my approach on energy is right for you, my readers, I may not have many followers but I know I got quite a few readers, or at least more than I do followers -grin-. Anyway, I was watching, well, rather, re-watching the Secret, and realized something. Its like the bible for me, the Secret, it allows me to see something new every time I watch it or read it. And this time I realized why my life wasn't up to speed yet. It was the quote, by Bob Proctor, "You've got to pay attention, to what you're attracted to, because as you hold images of what you want, you're going to be attracted to things and they're going to be attracted to you."
And so I asked myself, what am I attracted to. And I realized that was what was conflicting and confusing my polarity. I want this life of happiness, peace and stabilty, but really, I'm attracted to the beauty of the Melancholy, the destroyed and fallen seeking redemption, the dystopic, dismal, grim, gloomy underbelly of life, the blood that drizzles and drips from wounds from passively walking on the otherside of the Veil where people don't employ the Secret to better their life, they let their residual reality just string them along into this complacency.
So, I am going to challenge myself, this is the second Star Challenge Week I've given myself in the space of a month, but why not. The first Star Challenge Week went quite well, I'd like to think. Would have went better if I didn't procrastinate so much. But I will focus and pretend I'm in ritual 24/7. Like a 24/7 D/s relationship with the universe, kinky and sensual, just what I need. Ignoring the static of residual reality, the Shaitans of the Multiverse, whispers of thoughts, ghosts in the human machine of a brain, trying to hack into current, uncorrupted files, people trying to preach and influence other corruption into my system.
I won't listen. We won't listen. We will come out on Top and ready to rock the world.
This is a test, like Chaos Magick, you just try a bunch of stuff, different things and then you go with what works, I've found a few things that work for me sometimes, but the one thing that always works, and continues to work for me, is magick. Will. Intention. Emotion. Its Magick and it works, and I want to learn more. I want to feed this part of me. If anything, that song, 'the world is a vampire' is partly true. Everything is something that you have to feed, nurture with psychic energy. They are very literally 'seeds' and seeds grow into fruits which can be eaten by other people or beings, and not just you, which is why when you do something, do things, you invest energy and you feel drained or 'tired' at the end of the day/night ... whatever. Its why you should choose what you invest your energy in wisely, choose things that correspond on some level to your bliss, whatever that is. Find your bliss, and broaden your mind and you will change the world from the inside ... out.
xXxStars In DarknessxXx
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